Almost here and almost there.

So, I have my clock set for 4:30am. You know I got to fix my hair. LOL! I won't be able to fix it for awhile after they zip my head back up. In the Chiarian community, "zipperhead" is the nickname for those that have had decompression surgery. A special thanks to Bethany who brought me her bandannas. I don't think I can pull "the look" off like she can, but I will try. Some lipstick should do the trick.



The hardest thing so far was to put my kids to bed. I won't see them in the morning so it was sad for me. I know I will not see them for a few days and will miss them terribly. My precious children........ We had a great time eating out tonight. We had Andy's... cheesesteak subs, chili-cheese fries, hot dogs, milkshakes, oh yeah.... I am eating everything in site. We visited with mom and Aunt Laney, and then Nate, the kids and I went for a walk. Bath time, story time, and I painted Lela's toenails and fingernails. Shendi said Goodbye to the laptop for a week, (it's going with us. David just wanted to cuddle with his "Sweet Mother." I know, but seriously that's what he calls me and it is oh so dear.



Mema hasn't passed yet, but it is soon approaching. I think she may go when I'm having surgery. When she could understand me days ago, I told her if she got there before my surgery to make sure God knew what was going on with me:) I can just imagine. Either way she will see her Father. And, yes, I know He knows everything. Pray He will go ahead and take her Now. I hate that she's like this. Pray.



Our anniversary is tomorrow, in like 10minutes. Eight years and we have soooo much to show for it! Nate is sleeping. I must do the same!!! Maybe I can post tomorrow once I know what the Heck is going on!!!!



Love you all so much.....

Love you Nate

Kimberly



Make a Memory!!!! or two

THOUGHTS OF A LOVING HUSBAND

THOUGHTS OF A LOVING HUSBAND







TO MY LOVING WIFE,


I HAVE LOVED YOU FROM THE VERY BEGINING AND EACH DAY I GROW CLOSER TO YOU. I HAVE MADE MY PRAYERS AND SUPPLICATIONS KNOWN TO GOD WITH THANKSGIVING, THAT HE WILL BE THE DOCTORS HANDS AND MINDS. THIS PAST YEAR HAS BEEN A YEAR OF THE LOCUSTS, BUT ALWAYS AFTER A STORM WE ARE BLESSED TO SEE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SUNSHINE. THE WORD THAT COMES TO MIND IS NUMBERS 6:24-26. "THE LORD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU AND MAY HE SHINE HIS GLORIOUS FACE UPON YOU AND BE GRACIOUS TO YOU. MAY THE LORD TURN HIS FACE TOWARD YOU AND GIVE YOU PEACE". THIS PEACE FROM GOD WE CAN NOT UNDERSTAND, BUT WE KNOW THROUGH JESUS CHRIST WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS. GOD WILL RESTORE WHAT THE LOCUSTS HAVE DESTORYED. GOD WILL BRING YOU WHOLE AGIAN FOR HIS NAME SAKE. FOR HIS NAME IS JEHOVAH ROPHE: THE LORD WHO HEALS. MAY HE BE JUST THAT IN THE FULLEST MEANING OF HIS NAME FOR YOU AND THOSE WHOM YOU LOVE AND TRUST.





YOUR LOVING HUSBAND, NATE

Fundraiser for Kim

Hello everyone, my name is Melissa Stephenson and I am a friend of Kim and a former co-worker at Salon on Third. I want to reach out to all of you who love Kim as much as I do and support me in an fundraiser for Kim and Nate. We need all the support and donations available....I am going to be gathering information on how much we need to have Bar-B-Q plates with slaw, potatoes, hushpuppies, and cake. I am working hard on finding people to donate food, supplies, and their time to help me sell the tickets for plates. I am asking you to help me make Nate and Kim's life easier thru this hard time. While Kim is out of work and at home recuperating from her surgery I want us to do all that we can to make this a successful fundraiser and to enrich our lives with the love and kindness that comes with helping someone you love and think the world of. Please email me if you are interested in helping with this and pass it along to friends, family, co-workers, and neighbors. I know we can make this work for Kim and Nate and the faster I get feedback from you I can get started with all the details. My email is mom2haley@earthlink.net and my phone number is 919-427-4379. Thank you, Melissa Stephenson

Today is Saturday. I haven't written on here in a couple days. I haven't wanted to. I don't think I would be able to relax before and after surgery knowing that my clients didn't have their hair done! LOL:) So, I am working again on Monday morning to tie up some loose ends.

Mema is at a nursing home now. She is soon to be going to her party. The kids understand that Mema has a party to go to. In Heaven. Jesus hasn't quite finished all the decorations and the guests are being told she's coming. Her mommy and daddy are going to be there. God is almost ready. Meanwhile she is being comforted with medicine. She's agitated. She's not in her right mind and it wears her body out to have company, even us. So we have all said our goodbyes. We will miss her dearly. My mother and aunt have done an amazing job during this. How hard this must be.

I am nervous about surgery. Even still. So much is going through my mind. I am ready to get it over with though. I won't know surgery details until the day before (Tuesday). Meanwhile I have to go to the store and pack my bags.

Miracle. I don't know how to explain this. I want to expect a miracle. But what is a miracle? We are so human. I might not even recognize a miracle if I saw one or even experienced it. I will know when I get to my party one day. He'll explain everything. Meanwhile I am just going to ride, not really thinking about what tomorrow will bring. I think I am going to enjoy the ride, regardless.

"The Will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."
Thanks Dana. Melissa S.you are amazing to me and I love you so much!!!I will keep this with me. Dorothy, if you're reading this thank you for everything. Jennifer D. thanks for all you've been to me, you are an awesome friend! Amy C. thanks for the beautiful flower in my window. Amy S. thanks for the roses (they lasted Forever!) Fran, thanks for the thoughtful gift. Martha you've always been there for me. My crazy, awesome co-workers thanks for all your concern, prayers, and jokes to keep my mind from wandering! Bethany I will never forget your first response to the phone call, "Lord bring her peace." - and He did! Peggy E. thanks for praying with me. Joan you are an angel in disguise. Teasie, girl you have the biggest heart in the world. Lea thanks for the flowers even before I knew of surgery, a "just because" gift. Anita, for listening to me complain about all my problems...... Joanna for being fervent in prayer, you and your faith are an inspiration to me. Pam Matthews for offering to keep these wild kids:) Charlotte, you are always so kind (My 1st client ever and still coming). Sarah F. for calling me and worrying about me! Stephanie Starling you are "for real" which is so hard to find these days! Mom, Dad, Jean, and Danny..... Kathy, Misty, Damon, Kevin, Ben we couldn't do all this without you! Mema, I love you. if I left anyone out, and I probably did, you know how I feel. I will post again before I go.

AMAZING

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxUGEN9kS9o

My mema is dying. The dx said about a week left. I have said goodbye and cried to pieces. Watch this video on Youtube. Just amazing and inspiring. love you all and maybe i will post later tonight after the kids are asleep.

ahhhhh!

El Elyon

I am exhausted today. I am so weak that my voice is leaving. After the surgery I am expecting to get it back. I haven't sounded quite like myself for some time. I have so much fight inside me. I have watched my mema and I want to live. Visions of her have flooded my head today. I watched her reach out with her left arm, her left side of her chest, and I could see right through her eyes. Those eyes are all I can remember. She reached out with such love and want. Her character before the stroke has been altered I think. Before, she loved us. It's just something you know, that your grandmother loves you. But this was different. It was almost as if she knows the other side of life now. I don't mean heaven or hell, although I told her whenever she talks again, she'll have to tell me if she saw the Light. I mean she seemed like she wanted to tell us something. Something she couldn't before. I don't want to wait until I'm on that side to share life. So many times I have asked God why? Why this, why that? But I don't want to know that anymore. Not right now. I trust Him. I have to. He's all I have. You know, after its all said and done and we are on a different side of life, He's all there is. What do I know about Him. I know all the Bible stories, and could answer just about any biblical question you have. But that's not enough. I know when my grandaddy was about to die years ago, I had a moment with him, that God gave me. He and I, in a hospital room, and he opened his eyes just for me. And I saw something in his eyes. Deep into his being. After Lydia was born, that first night she and I shared our hospital room together. In the middle of the night, the light was dim, I was lying on my side staring into her eyes. She was in that thing they sleep in with the plastic sides. I remember thinking I saw in her eyes what I remembered seeing in my grandaddy's eyes that day. So last night when Mema looked at me that's what I saw. When we're born, we come from eternity. Lydia was somewhere in eternity with God before she got here. I saw that in her eyes, like she was from somewhere I had been myself long ago in eternity. So before death, Eternity was in Grandaddy's eyes. And even on the side of a sickness or a stroke, eternity is what gets us through. Mema knows something that we don't. Something that no MRI or test can show us. We don't remember eternity, because we are in the middle somewhere. We let things get in the way of eternity. It's in moments like these that the familiar face of God shows up in our loved ones. LIFE, its where it starts and where it ends. ETERNITY, its where it starts and where it ends. If we lose friends we feel like we've lost so much. But we can get up again. But if we lose faith, we lose EVERYTHING. So I will say again. He is all I have. I have to trust Him. El Elyon, a name of Gods. It means Most High.